British Singer Jessie J Reveals She's Still Processing Her Miscarriage: 'This Has Changed Me Forever'
In late November, singer Jessie J revealed she suffered a miscarriage.
The 33-year-old star was devastated to say the least, but she decided not to cancel her performance the following day, as she felt that singing would help her heal from the "overwhelming" pain.
But the England native soon realized that she made the decision in haste, and she shared her true emotions in an emotional December 9 Instagram post, which featured a clip from her show.
"I posted about losing my baby just hours after I was told. I reacted in work mode," she acknowledged. "It’s safe to say I sometimes pour more energy into creating an unhealthy process of my own pain in front of a camera, than I do acknowledging it behind one in real time. 'The show must go on' mentality reacted before the human in me did."
At the time, The Voice Australia alum told herself that she would go on stage and just express herself, believing she would turn the situation into a moment of inspiration and strength.
"Truth is, I just needed to f**king cry and fall into someone’s arms and sob," she admitted. "But at the time I was alone. I hadn’t processed anything. Nor did I have any idea what I was about to go through not just emotionally but physically after this show."
The "Domino" singer said that she now understands why so many women want to publicly talk about miscarriages and break the stigma.
"I have never experienced physical pain and trauma or felt loneliness like it. This has changed me forever," she noted of the tragic situation. "In the most, heartbreaking, but beautiful way. It’s put life into perspective in a way nothing else ever has."
She then offered her condolences and a shoulder to lean on to anyone who's gone through the same ordeal.
"Losing your baby is one of the worst feelings in the world," she stated. "I ache for you. If I could I would bring you food, hold you through the physical pain, I know that’s needed more than a 'stay strong' text right now."
"I guess I’m here to say to anyone who may not have been told this, you are allowed to be broken. You are allowed to cry. Allowed to be weak. Allowed to be exhausted from the pain and the bleeding and the grief that barely has space to exist. You are allowed to do this however YOU need to," she concluded. "Sometimes life just calls us to be human. We know there will be sunshine, but we can’t avoid the rain."
