Kelly Osbourne Admits Her Son 'Saved' Her Life After Battling Addiction: 'I Don’t Think I Knew What Love Was Before'

Kelly Osbourne credits her child with her new lease on life.

The Fashion Police alum, 40, gave birth to her and her partner Sid Wilson's son, Sidney, in November 2022, only one year after she made the decision to be completely sober following years navigating her addiction battle.

"I truly believe my baby saved me and made me a whole human," she candidly revealed in a recent interview. "I don’t think I knew what love was before having a baby."

Now that Osbourne has a human to care for, her entire world completely flipped. "I don’t remember life before having the baby because everything has changed," the former reality star said. "I didn’t realize just how powerful the feeling of love was [going to be] when you have the baby. It’s the most … addictive feeling I have ever felt. You realize in that one second, 'You’ve given me purpose like nothing has ever given me before.' I don’t think I had purpose. I went from thing to thing to thing, and this level of self-hate and self-doubt that I used to have would just take me out."

After going through many traumas in her life, The Osbournes star felt like her kiddo was heaven-sent at the perfect time. "I don't believe God would've given me a baby during a time when I wasn't mentally or physically prepared for it. [When] I was still actively drinking, still actively using, I would've been a terrible mother," she explained. "I wasn't selfless enough. I'm so glad it happened when I was a little older and I had my s--- together."

Osbourne admitted the road to parenthood was so rough she didn't know she would make it to 40. "There was a time where everyone around me was dying and ODing or something horrible. I got survivor's guilt because I was like, 'Well, why have they spared me?' It wasn't until I turned about 33 that I sat back and was like, 'I need to work on me. I need to figure this out because it will be me next.' There are only three places you end up when you're an addict: jails, institutions or death. I was really f------ lucky that I only ended up in the institutions," the media personality noted.

"I am just so grateful for every mistake I made, for every lesson learned, for all of it. I have such an incredible life," the mother-of-one gushed.

A large part of this happy chapter has been self-acceptance. "I have such a strong sense of self now. I don’t want to be the prettiest girl in the room, I don’t want to be the smartest or the funniest or the loudest. I just want to be my weird self, and learning to love that weird self was a f------ journey that took me to the gates of h--- and back again," she said.

Us Weekly conducted the interview with Osbourne.